魔法少女プリティジューリャ

Weekend Plans

2008-05-16T19:24:51Z

First of all, Shpongle and Younger Brother are playing live tonight in San Francisco:
http://sanfrancisco.tribe.net/event/Symbiosis-presents-Shpongle-Younger-Brother-Antennae-Ania-Sia-More-This-Fri-May-16th-SF/san-francisco-ca/6394c084-a49c-49e5-b50b-36c7db807798
I really really want to go, and will most likely be there, but some of my friends can't make it, and it won't be as fun without them.

I'd post audio clips here, so you could hear how awesome they are, but I don't have time to do that right now…

Then there's Ancient Ways taking place right now. And driving down to Los Angeles for Layer One inclusive or Califur, but I'd really be more interesting in visiting my ex-GF in Bakersfield. I also need to decide really quickly, whether or not I'm going to go to PH-Neutral

Speaking of Bakersfield, I have a young MtF friend down there who's having difficulty with getting HRT from her doctor(s). Can anyone recommend a good doctor to see for trans issues, located in either Bakersfield or the Los Angeles area?

"So this is it. We're going to die."

2008-05-10T03:09:27Z

At one point in the last several days, I found myself in a situation where I said to myself: Oh shit! So this is it, this is how I die&hellip […] (Oh, I'm still alive.) In hindsight I wasn't really in any danger. Whenever I have one of these experiences, it really reminds me of just how much I really love being alive despite all the pain. That, and I really feel like I'm not done yet. There's something I'm supposed to be doing on this Earth — I don't know what it is, so I could be doing it right now for all I know.

After the previous time this happened to me (a few months ago), I wrote the following farewell to a friend:

This is Julia. I want you to know that life is a gift, and you should cherish every beautiful moment of it. Be Well.

Another thing that I have observed about myself in these moments, is the entire rest of my brain/mind very rapidly formulating survival plans, to immediately get out of the situation. It's almost like an automatic reflex.

If you've ever found yourself in one of these situations where you've thought to yourself that you were going to die. What were the last thoughts which ran through your head?

Unsorted Photos from April 2008 [Part 1]

2008-04-26T21:02:22Z

Stuff From April 2008 Random assortment of photos from this month. The only things they have in common is that I like them. photo, Apr 2008 Julia Wolf Julia Wolf image/jpeg 2008 5_DSC9994_680x1024.jpg5_DSC9872_680x1024.jpg5_DSC9862_680x1024.jpg5_DSC9810_680x1024.jpg5_DSC9809_680x1024.jpg5_DSC9807_680x1024.jpg5_DSC9541_680x1024.jpg5_DSC9540_680x1024.jpg5_DSC9467_680x1024.jpg5_DSC9462_680x1024.jpg5_DSC9341_680x1024.jpg5_DSC9302_680x1024.jpg5_DSC9234_680x1024.jpg5_DSC9149_680x1024.jpg5_DSC9125_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8978_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8968_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8964_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8933_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8931_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8914_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8896_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8889_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8860_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8853_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8844_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8823_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8777_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8776_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8774_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8773_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8715_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8714_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8637_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8634_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8439_680x1024.jpg5_DSC8435_680x1024.jpg5_DSC1000_680x1024.jpg5_DSC0990_680x1024.jpg5_DSC0950_680x1024.jpg5_DSC0948_680x1024.jpg5_DSC0755_680x1024.jpg5_DSC0612_680x1024.jpg5_DSC0610_680x1024.jpg5_DSC0337_680x1024.jpg5_DSC0264_680x1024.jpg5_DSC0256_680x1024.jpg5_DSC0252_680x1024.jpg5_DSC0190_680x1024.jpg5_DSC0018_680x1024.jpg
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Unsorted Photos from April 2008 [Part 2]

2008-04-26T21:01:42Z

Unsorted Photos from March 2008 [Part 1]

2008-04-26T20:56:04Z

Stuff From March 2008 Random assortment of photos from last month. The only things they have in common is that I like them. photo, Mar 2008 Julia Wolf Julia Wolf image/jpeg 2008 5_DSC8253_1024x680.jpg5_DSC8164_1024x680.jpg5_DSC7543_1024x680.jpg5_DSC7491_1024x680.jpg5_DSC7425_1024x680.jpg5_DSC7152_1024x680.jpg5_DSC7067_1024x680.jpg5_DSC7019_1024x680.jpg5_DSC7015_1024x680.jpg5_DSC7013_1024x680.jpg5_DSC7009_1024x680.jpg5_DSC6981_1024x680.jpg5_DSC6860_1024x680.jpg5_DSC6835_1024x680.jpg5_DSC6834_1024x680.jpg5_DSC6792_1024x680.jpg
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Unsorted Photos from March 2008 [Part 2]

2008-04-26T20:31:47Z

Weekend Plans

2008-04-26T07:46:55Z

So, there's BELTANE ALCHEMY: http://www.isisoasis.org/beltane2008/
And Costume-Con 26: http://www.cc26.info/
And a party at gentle_gamer's house.
Since the weather is supposed to be super-nice tomorrow, I really want to spend it outdoors. So I'm probably going to none of the above. (There's also taking a day off to clean my room and process photos and stuff like that which I never have time to do.)
I've been informed that there is also a parade taking place in downtown Mountain View tomorrow as well.

Something that's been on my mind lately

2008-04-26T06:46:59Z

On Monday [Apr 21], I was standing on the sidewalk in downtown San Francisco [near Civic Center], speaking with Nyah. A homeless-looking woman came around the corner, followed by a homeless-looking man; They appeared to be having some kind of argument, the subject of which I could not discern. The man grabbed onto the woman and pinned her up against the wall (there was more yelling and stuff), the man also appeared to be pulling his pants down [or possibly up]. To me, it looked like things were about to get worse, so completely without thinking about it, I yelled at the guy twice as I ran up (he ignored me), and then shoved him off the woman (who fled the scene) (then he noticed me). He yelled at me a bunch, I don't remember what he said, I was like Yeah, yeah, whatever I was mostly thinking about how I would avoid coming into contact with his bodily fluids if I had to incapacitate him. He walked down the sidewalk, looking backwards at me, in the direction the woman fled, yelling at me the whole time, and then after about twenty feet he turned around and came back. He stood just out of arm reach, and wanted me to agree to something, I think that it was something like: I need to watch out, because the next time he sees me, he'll kick my ass. [Not this time of course.] And I was like yeah, whatever as I was targeting where to grab him if he moved any closer. He walked away again, satisfied (I guess) with my answer, then after twenty feet or so, turned around again, and came up right next to me again. I think he was asking me the same question again. And I did the same thing, and he walked away again, and after the same distance, turned back around and came back, again. And so I did the same thing, and then he finally left, and didn't come back to ask me something unintelligible.

I went back over to Nyah, and immediately picked up the conversation where it left off, as if nothing had happened. However, she couldn't continue the conversation because she was in shock. I realized that I had felt no fear at all, which was a little bit surprising, as this is the sort of situation where you might expect one would feel fear. In fact, I'm a little bit concerned about this as it would seem like a symptom on some DSM entry.

So, I'm not sure what story I should tell myself: What this experience means about me. Does it mean that I'm a hero, that my true calling is law enforcement not computer security? Does it mean that I'm a cold emotionless psychopath? (Or at least that my emergency backup personality is.)

It also occurred to me a few days later, that I probably should have called the police at the time. It also occurred to me that, technically speaking I assaulted the guy. (Though it may not technically be assault if you're stopping another crime; I am not a lawyer.)

Tangent: There was another homeless-looking black man down the street who after watching the above take place, accused me of being a racist. I couldn't understand why; I pulled that [black] man off that woman because I thought he was about to rape her, not because I hate blacks. He also accused Nyah of being a racist too, although she hadn't moved or said anything. I really didn't want to get into a dialog with this guy over why I'm not a racist, since I suspect that he probably accuses everyone of being racist. So I mostly ignored him, and he went away. As he was leaving I heard the first reasonable thing out of his mouth: He said that I was a racist, because if it had been a black woman, I wouldn't have saved her. I didn't really know how to respond to that… Especially since I thought that the woman was black, and more importantly: I would have saved anyone in that situation.

Postscript: This is not the first time in which I've been in a situation like this.

foxgrrl @ 2008-04-19T18:46:00

2008-04-20T01:49:00Z

Just gave my talk -- I can be social now!

In the vicinity of Seattle

2008-04-18T02:20:57Z

I'm hiding out in a hotel in Lakewood, WA working on my slides, (and sleeping and stuff). I'll be up in Seattle tomorrow in time for the Lightning talks; But possibly up there after 1PM, with nothing to do until the con starts.

Seattle again

2008-04-16T23:39:51Z

I'm flying up to Seattle tomorrow for Toorcon. I am renting a car, but haven't figured out where I'm going to sleep yet. Nyah is accompanying me on this journey.

Arrival: SEA Apr 17 2:40PM PDT

Yuri's Night Bay Area 2007 [Part 5]

2008-04-12T23:28:06Z

Yuri's Night 2007 There are from Yuri's Night last year. So, I'm only one year late in posting this. This is what you'll be missing tonight if you're not going. Yuri's Night, World Space Party, NASA, Ames, Yuri Gagarin, photo, Apr 2007, Moffet Field, Mountain View, CA, USA Julia Wolf Julia Wolf image/jpeg 2007 4_DSC4892_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4833_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4804_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4712_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4702_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4691_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4670_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4576_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4567_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4537_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4536_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4509_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4470_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4440_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4435_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4432_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4430_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4427_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4420_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4392_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4182_685x1024.jpg4_DSC4174_685x1024.jpg
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Yuri's Night Bay Area 2007 [Part 4]

2008-04-12T23:23:30Z

Yuri's Night Bay Area 2007 [Part 3]

2008-04-12T23:17:36Z